if this is kissing an angel...

6:04pm: he was right and i was wrong, but there's nothing i can do about that now.

and i'm all out of cigarettes at the one time i could really use one.

by the way, i have a new lj and sn. yeah.
lj- baby_lem0nade
sn- BabyLemonade414

i'm trying to be positive, but the bottom line is that i got what i deserved.

4:05pm: i broke up with sam last night and i miss him already. i hate that he hates me and i don't think i can fix this.

thank you to alicia for making me feel better just by saying "bone-huntin."

i'm not sure what to do next.

2:01pm: sam apparently drove to my house in the middle of the night
because this morning i found a bag full of cds, shirts (his, for me to sleep in), pictures, and a pink floyd poster on my porch.
he definitely made my fucking day.

tomorrow, i get my braces off, and i won't be at school.
the next time you all see me, i'll be brace-less and 16, because my birthday is on thursday. <3


everyone, i love you.

BOOM BAM SHAZAM.

3:30pm: i have piles of good news:

-i get my braces off next wednesday (and i get to miss bio for it)
-my birthday is next thursday (!!!)
-my mom is leaving for 10 days next friday
-me and sam's one month was yesterday
-i get my liscense in a little more than a month
-I HAVE A CAR i dont care if it's a old ford escort IT GOES and thats all that matters!

i'm in a wonderful mood, and i hope everyone else is too :D

11:03pm: This is me exposing all of Sam's secrets:
-he likes to murder snails in cold blood (or slime, i should say)
-he's captured by phillip morris
-cool kids neva have the time
-he's the DANKEST bitch.

that's all folks.

8:33pm: ( siiick brah )

4:25pm: regarding the kickbacks taking place at my residence friday and saturday:

come if you'd like, and feel free to bring chill friends
try to bring some drinks or money for those getting alcohol
you can sleep at my house if needed
saturday will probably be the bigger one, so i recommend going then
call my cell before you show up, or if you need directions/the gate code


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMEE!! THE BIG 1-7!! i love you skank face!

6:42pm: i definitely baked banana bread earlier today.

when plans fall through at the last minute, well, it blows. now i'm bored, and i don't want to go to that dumb party. i guess i'll...read or something. do my laundry. twidle my thumbs. be a loser. stare at the television. inhale nail polish fumes. rape an antelope.

that last one was a joke. see how funny i can be? yeah...

9:00pm: did everybody know that hunter s. thompson committed suicide last sunday?? how freaking lame is that...and why did i just find out today? i must suck or something.

6:44pm: i've almost completely lost my voice. i sound like i'm dying.

mumsy thinks i have the flu, but i refuse to get sick again.
i'm relying on the power of positive thinking and lots and lots of water so i can feel better and hopefully go do something soon. i go crazy when holed up in the house too long-already i've begun tapping my foot incessantly and figeting with my clothes.
or maybe that's just because i'm highly caffeinated right now.

otherwise, i'm even more intensely happy than i have been for the past few weeks.

if you havin girl problems i feel bad for you son
i got 99 problems but a bitch aint one HIT MEH

1:48pm: Happy Valentine's Day! <3

The show last night was amazingly awesome. Stephanie and I really liked the Chinese Stars, so we put our cash together to buy the CD. My mom let me stay for the whole show (yesss), and the Blood Brothers played love rhymes with hideous car wreck for their last song, which made me intensely happy. In fact, the whole night made me intensely happy, a feeling that's still going strong even now. I love my basset hound oh so very much!

Adam Clayton Moyes showed up. He's not any different, and I can't decide if this is a good or bad thing. Well, yeah.

10:03pm: i've got the spirit, but lose the feeling.
anyone have a spare hammock for this weekend?

some people just make me terribly happy.

9:07pm: today=good. courtney=happy, but crying. todd=awesome big brother. you=<3
friday is coming, hooray for no school!

( long lame surrrrrvey )

10:08pm: In love with the world...
<3

2:28pm: consider this....
"Like into realms beyond reason. I think present-day reason is an analouge of the flat earth of the medieval period. If you go too far beyond it you'e presumed to fall off, into insanity. And people are very much afraid of that. I think this fear of insanity is comparable to the fear people once had of falling off the edge of the world. Or the fear of heretics. There's a very close analouge here."

"Mental reflection is so much more interesting than TV it's a shame more people don't switch to it. They probably think what they hear is unimportant but it never is."

from Zen and the Art of Mortorcycle Maintenence

i'm in school, and we have about thirty seconds left. woo hoo!

7:11pm: le photos
( pretty pretty pictures )

8:00pm:
what do you guys think about my new hair?

formal was tons of fun, i'll have the most awesome pictures EVER soon.


you're lying while you confess
keep trying to explain.

and she raised her hands in the air
asks you "when was the last time you looked in the mirror
'cause you've changed...yeah, you've changed."

you're either coming or you just left
but you're always on the way

so its true, the trick is complete
you've become everything you said you never would be

7:54pm: today...well it basically sucked. i watched episode upon episode of lame dawson's creek re-runs while coughing my little mouth off. i swear i didnt move from my bed for five hours straight. oh, and catwoman is a retarded movie, with lots of unecessary whip-cracking by ms. berry. but then again, if i was in a super hot cat-outfit accessorized by a whip i'd probably do the same thing.

when my mom got home, i did a lovely job of acting like i was sicker than i actually am, so i'm pretty sure i'm staying home AGAIN tomorrow.

if i do, then i'll have missed 3 outta 6 days of the new term. score!

8:57pm: yucky
i'm terribly, horribly, awfully sick, so i think i'm staying home again tomorrow.
blah. i hate being diseased.

11:07pm:

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9:30pm: uggghhh, i feel yucky. my throat is killing me, and my mouth hurts from those stupid people at the orthodontist.
i think i'm staying home tomorrow. someone come visit me and save me from sickly boredom.



Honey love you, honey little,
Honey funny sunny morning
Love you more funny love in the skyline baby
Ice-cream 'scuse me, I've seen you looking good the other evening




i really like how things are looking these days.

9:59pm: the formal is going to be awesome. kimee and i have the sickest dates ever. shhhh they're a secret! i still cant believe they agreed. we'll see what happens.

my weekend was pretty tight brah. highlight: cody throwing coffee and pissing on ****t's car. HAH thats what you get for messing with courtney renstrom! playa pleeease.

5:08pm: mmkay...so this week has been either really sucky or really good.

after i typed that i realized that nobody really gives a crap about the little details of my week and nobody would plan on reading a whole entry of mine about algebra 2 so i'll give up there. not that that's a bad thing, and i'm not trying to sound all woe-is-me or anything, it's just a fact. i probably wouldn't want to read a freaking novel about your life either.

sneaky sneak.

3:20pm: i hate cleaning.
i hate ending relationships that should have worked out.
i hate feeling guilty.
i hate that i've started to smoke cigarettes again.
i hate not knowing what to think.
i hate how i'm a walking, talking contradiction.

i hate how i'll sneak out tonight so that i can intoxicate myself and hate all of the above things even more in the morning.

12:06pm: try to set the night on fiiiiiiire
school didnt sound too appealing to kimee and i, so we decided to grab some starbucks and go back to her house. we are now watching the doors live in europe DVD and she's getting chips and salsa yum! and yes, we ARE having more fun than you. HA! yessss